Well, I survived! I am officially be 4 classes away from graduating. It feels absolutely amazing to say that.

I'm beginning the Job search. Too soon? No, I want to have the peace of mind when I do graduate, that i have some monetary funds coming in from somewhere other than my father's pocket. (Those of you who dont know, I dont have a job, but that doesnt mean daddy pays for everything, I have funded my education for 4 years now by myself with some support from my parents). this, in itself, is hard. Your led to believe that some company is just going to pick you out like an Apple on a tree and go "Yeah, this one looks good." But that is far from the truth. In a world where graduates are a dime a dozen, you have to set yourself apart, and I think that, my friends, is where I shall excel. Not to brag, but I'm a pretty good story.

Ya know that feeling where your sleeping and cant sleep because you absolutely convinced your exactly where your supposed to be and you have that feeling where for the first time in your life, you might just be proud of...Yourself?

Yeah, that was my last night. I couldn't sleep. 5 years ago if you told me I was going to be the first in my family to graduate from a school. Not only that, one I always wanted to go to, with a DEGREE? I would laugh in your face as I tried to stay awake on the night shift at Brookshire's.

For one,I didnt have the best grades. I'm smart, dont get me wrong, but I focused on working. I was good at what I did and my bosses loved me. I didnt enjoy it, but I was good at it. For someone who just graduated high school to be good at something was, needless to say, a damn good feeling. I cant explain to you the thrill of one of your bosses absolutely loving you. It's a great feeling.

For Two, I always thought I would go to college, but not graduate for some reason. Like, going to college was good enough. But in the end, I found it really wasnt hard at all. I believe I may be the "less country" one in my college (College of Agriculture), but I can tell you my knowledge of demand and supply, and ability to never quit levels the playing field.

I dont look good on paper for companies. I didnt make "Great" grades, but that doesnt mean I dont know anything, or less, than anyone else. But if they are comparing me to another person, then I can only pray they put me in a board room for an interview. Let my communication skills shine, and my ability to make anyone and everyone laugh show. But not be shallow, let my knowledge, and my work ethic be seen first hard. I'm determined, sort of niave, and very hard-headed. I dont like to fail, so without a shadow of a doubt, my work will be nothing less then spot-on perfect. My track record for "Never letting NO and Cant" stop me from achieving what I already have should speak for itself.

 Well, current events now. This weekend Wesley and I are going to help her parents pack and get ready to move to Funkytown (Ft. Worth). I'm looking forward to it, because they need help and its time spent well with people I love (Ya know, Since Saturday is the "Last Day of The World" and all)

The Sox have a winning record...finally. Faith has paid it's dues. Told y'all so.

And The fishing trip is only a few weeks away. But before that we have this weekend, and Rangers game the next weekend. Then it's back to summer school. Bummer.

Also, we have killed Osama Bin Laden. I think I speak for all Americans when I say God Bless our troops.

Well, guys, That'll be all for today. I have jobs to search for.

Lucas Out.

To be Continued (After finals, of course)

Damn, Already Finals time? Where'd the time go?

Well, First of all, I only have 3 finals this semester, which is awesome. Not only that, I had 2 of them on the same day. It was hard for only one day of the week, where I crammed as much words in my head, as well as drank as much caffeine into my body as I could to stay awake for 15 hour straight. But this give me about 4 days to relax before I have to do it all over again.

Wanna know why people say "college is a place where learning does not exist only experimentation"?

Because of Finals week. We spend so much of the semester just scraping by, that by the time finals come around all we do is crap knowledge into our heads, that are immediately extracted as soon as we pop open a cold beer afterwards, never to be remembered again. It's a senseless panic that comes over any and every student preparing.

"Did I study enough? I should've studied two nights ago!" things like this would never be said if our professors actually paced us to learn as we went along in the class, rather than just stuffing things to get an exam in.

Enough about that, it's summer time. Which I'm not really reeling in like I should. I have yet to enjoy sitting outside soaking up the sun with a cold Lone Star in my hand in a lawn chair. No, I may not have a job, but I have so much school, that at this point, being 23, it's not as easy for me to enjoy simple things anymore.

And that is painful for me to say.
I'm only 23, but feel 33. (That is what 4 years of finals will do to you)

But, I'm only 23. Shouldn't I be full of energy? Full of uncertainty of what lies next, by which I mean things like "What am I going to do tonight?" "What Bar has the better specials tonight?" "What is everyone else doing/going?" and "If God didnt want us to drink beer all day why would they make 24 packs of beer?" (my personal favorite)

No, instead I'm worrying all day, every day. Worrying about what I am about to accomplish, become, or go. Rather than what am I going to do when the sun goes down.
I have a great life, a great girlfriend, and amazing friends who make my life awesome (roommates, that's you).

So, I have to ask myself, "Why am I not enjoying them and appreciating them like I should?"

I would answer but I have a test tomorrow which is 55% of my grade....

Lucas Out.