If I could sum up my job search...I'd say it's going as efficient as me keeping up with this blog..
Terrible.
As the title suggests, I am on day 40 of my job/career/post-graduation dream/somebody, please pay me to do something...search.
Honestly, at this point. I am beginning to doubt most of everything I've ever done. And more than that, doubting ever being envious of anyone who graduated early into "the real world". Also, regretting making fun of those people who said "It's rough, you don't even know."
Oh, how right they were, and how unbelievably stupid I was.
At this point, I have given up on my dream of ever working at a Bank. I just don't see the point in trying to spending so much time trying to go after something that is just never going to work out in my favor. I have never truly given up on something, but I'm pretty sure if there was anything I should give up on, it's me ever working at a bank. It's just not gonna hap'n.
I guess I should give evidence as to why I am giving up, huh?
First, I have a "uncle" (long time family friend) works at a Ag and farm Credit company, who said he could help me, maybe even talk to his boss about how to get started and where to go. I called him several times when I was preparing to graduate, and if it wasn't for him, I probably wouldn't have chosen the degree plan I did (Yeah, seriously, thanks for that). But as I moved back home, when I called and tried to get into contact with him, my efforts came up empty.
He had helped someone else, who I can say was deserving of the opportunity, but not me. At first I began to think it was nothing, then as my calls were never returned, and emails never answered, I figured it wasn't going to happen.
Contact number 1...dead
Now, Contact 2 has actually helped me tremendously. He has been more help than I think could possibly imagine. With contacts with people who I would never have met in millions of years, even a VP of a bank in Dallas.
Still, even with all his help, I have come up short. Either my attributes are not desirable, or I am on a very lengthy run of bad luck.
After Contact 2 got me in contact with Contact 3, I thought , "Okay, lucky number 3. This should be it."
Either Contact 3 is a prankster, or he is ignoring me. I'll go with the last one.
Now, after 3 contacts, I shouldn't give up, right? Well, you haven't been told about the countless of emails and online applications filled out, with the same answers to questions and same qualifications as the job requires, maybe even more, sent and not replied to.
Wait, they have been replied to..
"Dear TYLER LUCAS, (key to an impersonal and automated email that says you suck)
Thank you for your interest is SUCH AND SUCH POSITION AT SUCH AND SUCH PLACE. After reviewing your qualifications (for about 5 minutes) we regret to inform you that you have not been chosen to interview for this position.
Thank you for your interest in SUCH AND SUCH BANK (You'll never work here) and we wish you the best of luck in your job search (See ya, Sucker)"
The problem with these emails, is that I don't even read some of them, I just know what they look like in the title, and know what they say and instantly delete them. There is only so much rejection you can deal with.
Funny thing is, at first, It did what it was supposed to. Motivate me. I've always had a good motor on me and dealt with rejection and played well with the cards I have been given. Like, "oh yeah? I guess we'll see about. I'm a bank executive in the making, and I cant wait to be in the position to buy you guys out."----Something along these lines was said in my mind.
But now, It's more of the feeling of disappointment, regret, and every other de-motivated emotion you can think of.
It's a "It's all about who ya know" situation, and I get that. But what separates us from every other country in this world is that you are promised only a few things in this life, but you have been promised them.
This "It's all about who you know" business is killing that. It's already taken victim my dream since I was 10.
I would like to cite good stories where dreams were fulfilled in the face of difficulty, but I cant. Because before I even can believe these, I think "Well, I wonder who they knew that got them that job."
I probably wouldn't be this bitter, but I believe I know exactly where it stems from.
Last week, I gave up my pride. Let go of all fear and applied for a simple teller position. After being a teller for a good, solid 2 years, I know my way around deposit slips and withdrawal slips, I'll move up eventually with my education.
Let me stress, I have teller experience. Not only cash handling experience but I have DONE THIS EXACT JOB before.
I received a rejection letter. Citing why, for the first time in any of these emails, was the reason:
"Over-qualified"
Wait, so you're saying you don't want to hire me, because I EXCEED your demands for a certain job? So, I cant even get a part time job now? The feeling after reading that statement, I will never forget.
Over-qualified. yet, they don't tell an all star in baseball he is "Too good" for his sport.
if that doesn't make you shake your head, make you realize how lucky you are to have whatever job you may have, then I don't know what will.
I don't know what I will do, now. Though, I can say with absolute confidence I have the best girlfriend and family support group you could possibly imagine. They couldn't be prouder (even if I don't have a job) to be around the first Lucas to graduate college.
I will have to scrap a dream and something I went through so much hell for 4 years to get closer to.Something Texas Tech and all my professors stamped for approval of qualification for. Something I have wanted to do since I was 10 years old.
Gotta believe and love that good ol' American Dream, right?
